[00:00:00] Break Down (Explicit) - Vin Jay
[00:01:00] Lyrics by：Vincent Jacovelli
[00:02:00] Composed by：Vincent Jacovelli
[00:11:00] Hey livin\' like a mess tryna numb my pain
[00:14:00] Battlin\' the demons in my mind all day
[00:17:00] Either I\'m ****** up or I\'m insane
[00:19:00] Pop a pill have a drink don\'t break down
[00:21:00] Hey livin\' like a mess tryna numb my pain
[00:25:00] Battlin\' the demons in my mind all day
[00:27:00] Either I\'m ****** up or I\'m insane
[00:30:00] Pop a pill have a drink don\'t break down
[00:33:00] Let\'s flash back to a moment in time
[00:34:00] When I was just a troubled youth tryna cope with his mind
[00:37:00] With psychedelics c*****e and some smokin aside
[00:40:00] When I was broke and overdosed and was hopin\' to die
[00:43:00] Yeah I guess the damaged of feelin\' ****** abandoned
[00:46:00] Left me torn so I was slammin\'
[00:47:00] Like every drug I was handed
[00:49:00] I managed \'til I ran out then ravaged through my dad\'s house
[00:51:00] Gather all my **** so I could sell it
[00:53:00] For a bag now
[00:54:00] I couldn\'t tell that I was losin\' myself
[00:56:00] And that the drugs only added to confusion I felt
[00:59:00] And when the homies hit me up I was refusing to help
[01:02:00] \'Cause I was busy tryna make a ****** noose with a belt
[01:05:00] But I was lonely and sick of feelin\' depressed
[01:08:00] I was runnin\' out of options
[01:09:00] And ways to cope with the stress
[01:10:00] I thought I\'d feel bliss when the reaper came to collect
[01:13:00] \'Cause I\'m done with the pain
[01:14:00] I\'d rather hang to my death and say
[01:16:00] Hey livin\' like a mess tryna numb my pain
[01:19:00] Battlin\' the demons in my mind all day
[01:22:00] Either I\'m ****** up or I\'m insane
[01:25:00] Pop a pill have a drink don\'t break down
[01:27:00] Hey livin\' like a mess tryna numb my pain
[01:30:00] Battlin\' the demons in my mind all day
[01:33:00] Either I\'m ****** up or I\'m insane
[01:36:00] Pop a pill have a drink don\'t break down
[01:38:00] I never thought that my life would end when I\'m seventeen
[01:40:00] Now I\'m writing notes to my family I thought I\'d never leave
[01:43:00] But all this pain I\'ve been feeling
[01:45:00] It\'s time to set it free
[01:46:00] Time to turn this torturous life of mine to a severed dream
[01:49:00] I waited \'til it was late and family was sleepin\'
[01:51:00] Was thinkin\' \'bout death
[01:52:00] I wasn\'t thinkin\' \'bout \'em grievin\'
[01:54:00] I thought that when they read the note they\'d understand my reasons
[01:57:00] So I crept downstairs time to finally conquer my demons
[02:00:00] I grabbed the booze plus a bottle of pills
[02:02:00] Ran \'em back up to my room feelin\' hollow with chills
[02:05:00] Wasn\'t nervous I was ready I was confident still
[02:07:00] Put a dozen in my palm and started poppin\' to kill
[02:10:00] Yeah I\'m finally doing it time to call in the eulogist
[02:13:00] I got what I deserved
[02:14:00] I took my life and I ruined it
[02:16:00] Thirty minutes later my feelin\'s started to fade
[02:18:00] Went from fallin\' out of love to fallin\' into my grave
[02:22:00] I\'m gettin\' woozy and passin\' out in my bed
[02:24:00] I was fadin\' in and out a few moments away from death
[02:27:00] But somethin\' in my stomach was travelin\' up my chest
[02:29:00] I just fell to the floor and started puking up red
[02:32:00] And now the medicine is coverin\' my hands
[02:35:00] They were drenched in it
[02:36:00] This is not the way that it was planned
[02:38:00] I crawled to my bed I was barely able to stand
[02:40:00] This is not what I intended I got myself in a jam
[02:43:00] I ****** up I was broken and weak
[02:46:00] I never wanted to die I wanted a moment of peace
[02:48:00] Felt my heart skip a beat when I woke from my sleep
[02:51:00] The next day and saw the suicide note at my feet
[02:54:00] And thought
[02:54:00] Hey livin\' like a mess tryna numb my pain
[02:58:00] Battlin\' the demons in my mind all day
[03:00:00] Either I\'m ****** up or I\'m insane
[03:03:00] Pop a pill have a drink don\'t break down
[03:05:00] Hey livin\' like a mess tryna numb my pain
[03:08:00] Battlin\' the demons in my mind all day
[03:11:00] Either I\'m ****** up or I\'m insane
[03:14:00] Pop a pill have a drink don\'t break down